I don't think about the consequences.
Fb buat taik pulak. Macam biasa ah, orang ada blog kau pun nak ada blog. This is the place where I share my thoughts. Haha. So, apa khabar? Sihat? Mintak penampar kan entry ni. Pape je lah, I'm messed up. Totally messed up with every single things. I feel like I wanna run all over the world and come to the same place again. Huhh? Still be in the same mode? Nothing is change, I'm tired of running and escaped from troubles. It is exhausting where you can predict what is going to happen to you next. I did. I don't want the same thing occur where I still going to bed feeling hopeless and fell asleep in state of despair and exhaustion. But I'm not depressed, I'm just tired.
Hey hey hey, perangai aku macam sampah, selayaknya dilayan seperti sampah. Tapi sorry baby, this is only me. Sepatutnya dihantar terus ke pusat pelupusan sampah, don't you think like that? But it would be better if we go together cz we are just the same. Sebab kadang kadang kita ni lupa diri kita ni siapa. Aku tak kata aku baik but hey hey hey, kau pun tak baik lah baby. Sampah macam kau mencemarkan alam sekitar, menyemakkan pandangan, menyesakkan nafas. Jangan kata aku lah sayang, kita cermin siapa paling lawa. Oh ye tak ye, kau lah paling lawa. Tak tak tak, kita test mulut siapa bau paling macam longkang. Sekurang kurangnya mulut aku ada lagi bau Jack Daniel's. Wangi sikit. Haha. Boo you whore!
To be sincere, I have made a mistake, a huge mistake which can't be regretted, actually. I've chose to deal with it. So I'm taking it. Feel easy to think it caused me to think normal, being straight. But hey hey hey, I deal with time too. Then, past is past, it was an experience where I can possibly make a lesson for me. Man, I'm not a kind of girl that you can simply touch next. Still, I was having fun. Fun. Make out? I wanted to try. Dare? Okay fine, aku yang nak. Haha. Lelaki still lelaki kan? Big applause for you guys cause be in my part of mine, I mean part of my life. Thank you Guys.
Dan untuk awak, awak, awak, awak, dan awak semua. For those who know me, Nurul Huda Binti Noradzlan, I'm really sorry for bing the pain in your ass. I'm the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me. Huhh. Okay, this is a confession lah! I apologize for my wrongdoings. For being a heart-breaker, pfft, trust me Girl, I didn't mean to but it was just that I couldn't be the one who can bare to this suck love story. Alaa, tak tahu cane nak explain. Tak bermaksud aku nak pergi dari hidup yuols, but I need space and time. Pehh, bajet aku hot kan? Sebab bajet lah, aku nak diam dulu. Mana tahu aku berubah, become a better girl someday. Sorry to those who sent messages, I didn't reply. To those who called, I didn't pick up. Kalau kau kau kau kau orang ada kat tempat aku, haihh, payah lah. I need someone, but, accurately, I need myself more. Hee. Huda kena jadik kuat dulu. Baru boleh jadik kuat untuk orang lain pulak. Sekasar kasar aku, hati taman weh. Sesasau sasau aku pun, aku fragile weh.
I dream to have a guy who I can share all about my things. He would be mine, and I would be his. He would kiss me, hug me, pampered me and we do say 'I Love You' when we make out. I will always dream to be in this but when it would come to be true? Danngg. I just want to say Boy, I Love You when I get my Mr. Right. Sooner or later. But then, have you ever feel so locked up with your own feelings? Two roads laid infront of you, and you have not an idea of which one to take. I don't want to choose, I just want to travel both. I might have chose one of those two, but there's no guarantee that I won't turn back to try the other one. It's life, we never know what it's offering for the future. No guarantee, no warranty. It's on the basis of 'on your own risk'. Get shot and you're dead. Survived and the crown is yours.