At least you threw me.
Let it be the simplest way to be described. I hate people advising me on to forget the past in the way to make me feel better in every my pissed off time. But they are actually clueless what they are trying to say in fact they are ridiculous. Plus, I bet that they also have the same matter just like me. Why don't you people have a looked at yourself first then you show me the best part you got. Then, I will considered yourself as my-best-counselor-ever! As I'm feeling heartless now, I let any stranger to judge on me. The good and bad side of me. I will keep my mouth shut cz I know myself better. But, until one day, if I can't hold onto anymore, let us be like tornado meets volcano. Who'll be the greater. And who'll be burst like hell. Ok, I'm a masochist.
Kadang kadang aku rasa hidup ni sangat tak adil bagi aku. Dah ada depan mata, tapi ada dateline pulak. Bila tak dicari, diri rasa memberontak. Nak rasa macam orang lain rasa jugak. Ada keluarga yang boleh hari hari lepak sama sama, ada adik yang boleh tdo peluk hari hari, ada kekasih hati yang boleh sambut tangan aku langkah longkang, ada duit yang boleh aku tekan kat mesin atm selalu, ada stable consistency in study life. Sakit jugak ada kala hidup kat atas bawah ni. Rasa letih. Jujurnya, aku tak kuat. Hati mengadu sakit, siapa tahu. Orang main belakang, mana aku tahu. Haha. Jalan yang boleh hilangkan sekejap rasa sengal dalam hati is having a moment with koken and sigeret. Duduk tepi bangunan, petik api, sedut, then keluar asap. If that smog can release the problems too...
Go with the flow. Yeah, I'm on that flow. Aku rasa aku atas rakit yang tengah ikut flow gampang tu. Tapi lama kelamaan, rakit tu tercabut satu satu. What should I do? Berenang? Nanti aku macam itik kat laut kau tauu. I don't great in swimming. Tapi aku taknak lemas lagi. I need my LIFE-RESCUE-GUARD. Immediately.